jaadu hai

a dream just died
but we live without it
we had felt it
but lost it
we did not die with it
a dream just died
leaving nothing
just us

i spread a dream
no one saw it
i did not see it
we felt it
the essence of it
we had hope
because we felt
a dream

kabhi mehfil
to kabhi tanhaa hai.
kabhi jaadu
to kabhi nasha hai.

kaun nahin?
kaun kaun nahin?
kaun kahaan nahin?
kaun yahaan nahin?
kisne kya kahaa?
kisne kya kahaa nahin?
kisne kuch kahaa?
kisne kehdiya nahin?
kaun ayaa nahin?
kaun jataa nahin?
kisne sunaa?
kisne dekha nahin?
dekho…
koi nahin…
koi nahin.

locked in my mind
not a word i can say
to make it right
or to make it wrong again

the tide stands still
as i wait for time
the tide follows time
waiting for no one

kyun hai dil khud se khafa?
kya hai naraazgi ki whajha?
jaaye to ab jaaye kahaan?
dil se kaise faasle, kaise dil se dooriyaan?

poonchta hoon khud se yeh sawaal,
par jaanta hoon kya marz hai.
dil se hoon is liye khafa,
kyun ke dil badaa khudgarz hai.

bhatakti nigahen
woh rahaa dhoondti hai
asmaan dhoondti hai
dektho to
saara jahaan dhoondti hai
par meri aanhkein
sirf teri aaha dhoondti hai

bhatakti nigahen
woh jaam dhoondti hai
sar-e-aam dhoondti hai
jeetne ko
koi eenaam dhoondti hai
par meri aankhein
sirf tera naam dhoondti hai

my old memories
are long gone and
i cannot make memories
for more than a day

every book i read
is like deja vu
a faint thread
a slight sense of connection
but that too falls
my memory fails me
but brings me
a new day everyday

in ways it is good
i can cry today
and not remember tomorrow
but i can love today
and not remember tomorrow
that thought hurts me today
but will not hurt me tomorrow

i am reborn every day
a reminder of death from yesterday

i await a day
where with a clear mind
i can read a book
and then again
and then again
and then again
and maybe, then again

a day
where with a rocking rhythm
i can strum a chord
and then again
and then again
and then again
and maybe, then again

a day
where with my echoes
i can sing a song
and then again
and then again
and then again
and maybe, then again

a day
where with simple words
i can write
and then again
and then again
and then again
and maybe, then again

a night
where with the clouds, the stars, the moon
i can breathe
and then again
and then again
and then again
and maybe then …